Change of outlook
I wonder if it's a common experience, for those who go thru some turmoil, to come out of it with an almost care-free attitude. I don't mean carefree as in whoop-dee-doo! carefree, but care-free as in who the hell cares? As if, when your foundation is shaken a bit, the day to day trivial stresses just don't mean all that much. I'm not talking about depression, or feelings of sadness or despair. It's more like, after an emotional over-load, you just don't feel as intensely about anything. I feel more even-keel now than ever. Almost so mellow I'm boring. I wonder if I'll ever be my old high strung self again, that maybe this steady-eddy feeling is just an eye in the storm. But see, now already I don't care. I keep thinking I should feel worried about this change in attitude, but it's really not good or bad, just...different. And if I try to summon up that worried feeling, it doesn't come. So I'm stuck solidly in the "moment" and things are what they are.
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I\'ve found the before and after already (or at least I think so). Right after my DVT, I was consumed with living in the present, and cherishing the important things even more. I still do that, but I also go at life gung-ho and make plans for the future. I don\'t get quite as worked up, and I remember the lessons I\'ve learned, but I\'m still the same old me. It took a while to get back, but it\'s a good balance.
Just reading your \"Change of Outlook\" comment above and noticed it was written some time ago. I\'ve had my dvt for 3 months and have noticed that I feel the same way. As a perfectionist and generally highly strung person, I am wondering if you changed permanently because I would really like to stay more focussed on what is really important and maintain my new perspective. Especially in regards to overworking and housework!