challenging week
I had written an e mail to a friend, I was hoping to be able to cut and paste part of it here to.save time.on me typing it again but I guess it won't work in DS.
I have a friend, she lives here in my neighborhood. I've known her for about 2 years. I started off walking her dog, a papillon, we'd hang out afterwards have some tea. She became a positive presense in my life. She'd pick me up from work sometimes. She had to go take care of her elderly mom in NC for a few weeks. She had taken a fall.
She'd been away for a few weeks and this past Mon I get a text from her while I was at work. She said she was coming home. I was happy.
Then I get another text later in the day telling me she'd gotten a call from her brother in law, who she lives with (well with him and his wife) that they were moving. Their younger son just had a baby 6 months ago and they want to be closer to them. It's about a 45 min ride from here.
I feel sad and more lost than I have been. So many changes that I don't know which way us up. I had to move in May when the friends I lived with moved to OR. They've been gone since the beginning of July. I'm not sure I want to stay where I am or move in with a friend in Nebraska. I do have an older.brother who lives in Florida. I saw him at the beginning of May. But we're not close. I don't know what I will do.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't here at all :( I'm worthless
I have a friend, she lives here in my neighborhood. I've known her for about 2 years. I started off walking her dog, a papillon, we'd hang out afterwards have some tea. She became a positive presense in my life. She'd pick me up from work sometimes. She had to go take care of her elderly mom in NC for a few weeks. She had taken a fall.
She'd been away for a few weeks and this past Mon I get a text from her while I was at work. She said she was coming home. I was happy.
Then I get another text later in the day telling me she'd gotten a call from her brother in law, who she lives with (well with him and his wife) that they were moving. Their younger son just had a baby 6 months ago and they want to be closer to them. It's about a 45 min ride from here.
I feel sad and more lost than I have been. So many changes that I don't know which way us up. I had to move in May when the friends I lived with moved to OR. They've been gone since the beginning of July. I'm not sure I want to stay where I am or move in with a friend in Nebraska. I do have an older.brother who lives in Florida. I saw him at the beginning of May. But we're not close. I don't know what I will do.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't here at all :( I'm worthless
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awww! Dear Lily, *big comforting hugs* i\'m so sorry, that the plans changed. i know you were looking forward to visiting with your friend. i know it\'s been a very emotional stretch for you. i know how it hurts, when friends move on, or when we don\'t hear from friends much. i wish you strength, comfort, and healing. You\'ll always have us here on ds, to communicate with. :) no matter if it\'s a rough time, or a good time, we have so much to share :) i\'m sending you a halloween package in October :) we hope you are ready for a fun halloween season : )Remember, you are gonna be ok :) keep your chin up :)