Challenging myself!

I have been challenging myself so much recently, it is difficult and scary and has been making that ana voice scream loudly at me telling me i am eating "too" much, i shouldnt eat this and that, i cant eat because i ate this blah blah blah...i keep arguing with it though, it isvery strong at the moment, but i know i am stronger and if i keep fighting it will get smaller again. Last night i challenged myself by going out to dinner and then had pick n mix at the cinema and then tonight i had curry with my flatmate. I dont feel good about it because of all those things ed tells me, but i keep trying to remind myself that if is good for me to treat myself with food as it is what people do and it is ok to enjoy food and it does my body good and is another step in the right direction.  Also Missy's comment on one of my other journal entries stuck in my head, it was something like fuck the calories and enjoy the company around you, i have said that to myself on a number of occasions recently, which really helps cuz it feels like i am shouting back at the ana voice. (thanks Missy :-D) It will be ok, because i will make sure it is!