Challenging day...

Today was a challenging day.  I guess these are bound to pop up from time to time so I'm just taking it in stride.  I know I'm getting better, since a day like this would have sunk me a few months ago.  I woke up this morning with a flashback.  I haven't had one of those in a while but, at least, it wasn't violent or physically painful.  The flashback was actually of a memory that I've had for a long time ... what was different was that I could feel what I was thinking at the time.  I think it was significant and will try to discuss it tomorrow in therapy.  I'd like to just try to forget all about it but I don't think that's an affective way of getting better ... so I'll do my best to spit it out tomorrow.  Right now I think I can.  Other than that ... my father has been some trouble this week.  He's not been responding to voice and/or email so everyone was getting worried.  Of course everyone seemed to look to me to figure it out.  Since he lives 400 miles away ... I called the local police department and ask that they conduct a welfare check.  He was fine and called me after the police left.  The drama of the entire situation, of course, resulted in a flurry of email traded between myself and my sisters.  The oldest freaked out and got pissed off.  The middle sister took action and threw money at it.  I ... as afore mentioned ... just got down to the brass tacks and figured out if he was dead or alive ... which was what everyone was worried about.   I'm exhausted.  It's 7:00pm and my eyes feel like there is sand in them.  I want to go to bed but I know if I do, I'll wake up around midnight and then I'll be up all night.  So... just gotta tough it out.  Stay up till 10pm and then go to bed.  That way I'll sleep through the night ... hopefully.   This is such a ramble ... I don't know why I type this drivel but it gives me something to do and gets the thoughts out of my head.  I guess that's something... Anyway... gotta go take my contacts out before they get so dry they stick to my eyes and I can't get 'em out.  Yes, that's happened before and it's annoying.  Of course they always come out but usually after a prolonged session of prying them out.  That always gives a new meaning to "red eyes!"   TTFN...