change

Okay, I know this may sound strange to some but, I have in my life had some shifts in thinking that something in my head just clicked, and I knew there was going to be change. I do not know where it comes from.I am not the kind of person that makes quick decisions, I must ponderthem for a long time, however I also do not let fear keep me from doing things that I want to do.   I came out as a gay man about 20 years ago, at that time at least where I lived gay men were not supportive of men that said that they were bi. I kind of tucked that away for years until about 3 years ago when I started noticing women again. I did not give it much thought. That something thatclicked was, that I am finished dating men and sex with men also. I however am not going any furher that that right now.Ever since I was a child I wanted a wife and kids but that got neatly tucked away not without much sadness. I have just noticed lately that the straigh world is much more appealing to me.So I am setting out on another journey of discovery much like 20 years ago when I started living this life.I know that I will have to hear much anger and defensiveness from many of my friends but they do not know my heart. I am not ashamed of my life at all, I just see something else that is very appealing to me. I know that I am attracted to men physically, but also women. I will always have that attraction. I do not question it.I chose to date men and be manogamous I can do the same with whomever it is.   If anyone wants to discourage me I ask them, can you see my heart? No of coarse not.So please just don't.I have been a little lonely since this started because I have separated slowly from my friends the last 6 mo. maybe because this was brewing, but I am well.Like I said just not dating men now, I am not jumping into trying to date a woman. I just need time to soak things up.    This all being said,who knows what tomorrow will bring. Maybe never date a woman or a man but I am good with that. Eric