Celebrity Obsession
The title sort of says it all. I have a crush on/obsession with a certain celebrity (who will remain nameless).
Obsessions for me are quite normal and frequent, but they usually rotate and change after about 2 months or so, but this one has now lasted about 6 months, and doesn't seem like it is decreasing or going away.
I just think she is so pretty. I have honestly never seen someone so beautiful. I daydream a lot about her and her characters (even though she is 28 years older than me). I would love to meet her, and wish that she would like me, though i know that will never happen, of course. and to be honest, that makes me feel extremely depressed. It all seems so ridiculous and pathetic.
i do not have the delusion that i have a relationship with her though, like has happened with some fans of celebrities. and there is no danger of me acting on it in any way. It just really hurts i guess to know that she will never know me, and that even if she did, she would never, ever like me because i am so ugly, fat, and horrible. no one could ever love me, i know.
And with all of this, the obsession (and confidence issues), i'm not sure i can have a relationship with anyone, but i know that i need someone to love so much. One day i really do want that. But with my obsession with this woman, i don't know that anyone else could ever measure up. Agh, i just wish i could turn it off, but i really don't know how.
Obsessions for me are quite normal and frequent, but they usually rotate and change after about 2 months or so, but this one has now lasted about 6 months, and doesn't seem like it is decreasing or going away.
I just think she is so pretty. I have honestly never seen someone so beautiful. I daydream a lot about her and her characters (even though she is 28 years older than me). I would love to meet her, and wish that she would like me, though i know that will never happen, of course. and to be honest, that makes me feel extremely depressed. It all seems so ridiculous and pathetic.
i do not have the delusion that i have a relationship with her though, like has happened with some fans of celebrities. and there is no danger of me acting on it in any way. It just really hurts i guess to know that she will never know me, and that even if she did, she would never, ever like me because i am so ugly, fat, and horrible. no one could ever love me, i know.
And with all of this, the obsession (and confidence issues), i'm not sure i can have a relationship with anyone, but i know that i need someone to love so much. One day i really do want that. But with my obsession with this woman, i don't know that anyone else could ever measure up. Agh, i just wish i could turn it off, but i really don't know how.
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