Celebration Sadness

Every Holiday is difficult. Either i spend time celebrating with family and the perpetrater of my childhood abuse is in the same room. Or, i spend the Holidays alone, with just my husband. 

Personally, I’d rather not be in the same room with the man who sexually abused as a child. 

I’m shocked that the family who say they love me would expect me to spend these joyous occasions with him in the same room. Acting like its okay doesn’t make it so. 

I don’t want to perform in this show any more. I wish my family would see what he did to me.