Caught

i was talking to a suicide helpline threough an online chat yesterday. At 9o'clock at night my family got a call from my pricipal asking if i was okay because there was a girl named Rylie that was thinking about taking her life and the hotline person thought she was at serious risk. My mom told her i was fine. I didn't want to talk about it so i pretended to be asleep. At 11:30 we got a call from the sheriff's office saying they were sending a team to come check and make sure i was okay. When they asked me what was going on i just said i was feeling sad and i basicly started lying my butt off. One of them even said, "just sad, because we have a report saying otherwise" They were very nice and caring. i was shaking so hard, i was freaking out internally. ONce they left i told my mom that i kindof didn't want to live anymore, and about my cutting. My momsstill doesn't know the severity of my problems but we are going to get a councelor. ANy advice on seeing the counselor for the first time...im nervouse?