Carrying on

My job as it has been has disappeared but I have found new purpose at work and I am amazed at my resilency.  I miss my mom still and realize that it has been 5 months now, I guess you never get over it.  I'm still in the apartment we shared and haven't gotten rid of any of her things but I'm not home much and have been busy so I don't dwell on it.  I feel abandoned because I haven't heard from my nephew in Washington for some time or my cousin and feel all alone.  I feel that I could disappear at anytime and nobody would know or care.