Caring
I feel no one cares. I feel so alone. Even though I push people away I just desperately want someone to stay. I don't have the courage to admit it to anyone, but I'm really trying to be better and tell people when they try to get close to me that I have anxiety-panic and depression. Everyone I know goes away in the end. Who would want to really be with people like this? ! I mean I'm pretty meseed up in the head, relationships give me anxiety, I want one but idk how to keep one. I end up ruining it somehow. I started vocalizing more about my issues and people say they care and ask how they can help but then they go away and stop talking and wanting to hang out. I can't blame em but damn. Do I just want someone to be there for me while I vent and just cry. I'm tired of doing this all by myself. I'm tired of my head. I just need a true friend.
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You will have to do it yourself. You have to like you, just as you are, in this moment. It's hard to stop this pattern of thought, so try adding new activities, and learn different skills to help you find a way to share activity other than just talking in general. You can do this!
Yeah, it's all temporary shit. The most beautiful, saddest and sacred promise of this life is that you will not always feel this way.