Carbs are evil!

Ok so I've tried to revolutionize my diet weight loss plan...  but this is what's happening i'm skipping breakfast because i feel sick up until lunchat lunch I can manage to 'control' my eating... so I just have a meal replacement shake and some fruit, maybe a beverage with it like a tea of hot chocolate. Then if I'm peckish i'll have some nuts and fruitDinner time comes and here it goes downhill... I'll have a hot chocolate and head to the 6 pieces of bread and something sweet and carby like an apple pie or more bread.This sounds disgusting last thing at night, and to be honest with myself it really is! I plan to just have a shake and a beverage and a salad but I can't bring myself to do so because I feel a little rampid for more. Yet I'm not someone who likes to cook a meal at dinner and usually with night eating when I start... I find it so hard to stop - until the late hours and just before bed. I think a good solution would be to get out of the house and distract myself but the problem is that I haven't a great social atmosphere these days... no one to visit at this hour that is feasible (I can't very well go visit a male friend one on one with a boyfriend) and my girl friends all live so far away and are so 'busy' I can't really pin them down to do such a thing - or i'm just not that 'close' with them as people.  I hoped that I would just have a breakfast kind of dinner.... and this way my stomach wouldnl't be horrid for the morning and i could stomach actually eating breakfast but this night eating like crazy is proving hard to break. It's one thing to control my eating during the day but when it comes night time it's like a switch goes off and I need to binge. It was hard enough turning that switch off at 3pm but I have done so.. and this is because i'm not getting started and occupying myself. If there's any other late night eaters out there -HELP!@ HOw did you get through it and OVEr it and was the key to just not eat anything or what!  ~~~~ self esteem wise i'm still feeling really bulbous, old and just yucky. Had my 5 yr license taken today and I just look so old. I saw a video of myself and I look weighty and near double chinned and I don't make heads turn anymore. I feel like blonde's get all the attention too - since i've gone brunet... or is this just me?!!? I've always been blonde but maybe it's also because I cut my hair out of feeling so bad about myself and feel less attractive because of it.. and this feeling I think will linger until I get some more length in it and feel more feminine and what not.  I so badly want to lose weight... and yet i'm not quitting the eating late at night! ARGH!!! I hate repeating the same old mistakes and want to break them - and snap them really well! I feel like when I have a breaktrhough in this late night eating area then everything else will fall into place.