Capturing the moment

One thing led to another and I was hanging out with my old friends.  It was a good break.  I think I was kinda comfortable with them.  We had a few laughs and this morning I woke up and I was feeling very depressed as usual.  I believe that it was just that hanging out with friends and nothing more.  We also went to a festival today and there was sun and great music and a few conversations here and there.  It was a much needed break.  I don't know if I can count on this break to be a revival of my friendships or just an event and I would move on back to the issues that were bothering me.  I am not sure.  I don't see in my friends the kindness that I used to feel for them before.  I am not sure if this is a transient phase or it is true that I don't have feelings to do with them.  My feelings are controversial and I do not know if my friends would want to feel ok with me having these thoughts.  I am confused and physically tired.  I didn't sleep much last night and I just had a big pasta plate so I am getting lethargic.

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deleted_user

Oh no pasta is the pits! I often crave mac& cheeze but it makes me fat and goes straight to my butt and thighs. LOL Sounds like you need therapy/meds. Life\'s too short to be miserable~Take Care,Katie
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You sound like you have carbitis. I\'m a carboholic so I can relate. Cut out carbs never. Peterpan had neverland. Art4life I do to. Never go too long without chocolate,coffee,sex,art,books!Do you feel like your friends are genuine? If you don\'t that might be why you feel that way towards them. And there are different kinds of friends. Some friends you just have a good time with and some are really there for you when you need them and they help to feed your spirit and help you to grow. Friends that you can really talk to that are there for the long haul not just when everything is going good.
WhatLife
WhatLife

Hey art4life,
I sometimes limit my consumption of chocolate but my sex life is confused. I had this amazing group of friends but some of preferences changed so I felt that I didn\'t belong in the group of friends. It is supposed to be that one door closes and another opens but in this particular case I cannot find the other door. It is not easy.