Cant take it

I am so stressed out by childrens aid. They have taken both girls from my care, and I cant handle this. They forced me to seperate from my boyfriend (we are still together, but have to live apart and I cant see him unless its access visits with our daughter). I miss him so much, and I miss my older daughter. My baby is with me, but in someone elses care. we go to court in about a week and a half for me to try to increase access with my older girl, but her grandmother (who she is with right now) is fighting it too. I just dont know what to do anymore, and I cant seem to understand why this is happening to me. I didnt do anything wrong and neither did my boyfriend. They are saying the risk is too high, but where were they when my boyfriend was being abused?? 13 years , and they een placed all the kids with him! For goodness sake, on other regians cas was going to let him adopt a child! Im so stressed out by all of this