cant stand it

  i dont understand why i cut myself 4 the second time the 1st was jst out of curiosity (nver thought or felt anything) the second jst happend(nvr thought or felt anything) i seriously dont want to go down this line i have mentioned feeling shite to sum1 i no who suffers depression and she also selfharms an she dosent think am depressed but me bein me i only told her what i wanted her 2 no. the last couple of weeks have been the worst an that may be cause i am aware of it am so tierd my eyes are sore right this minute even when i get 5hrs sleep (thats when i shuld be awake)eh 8am till 12.10pm grrr i cant stand it anymore.