Can't do this anymore
Since I got on here everything has been more stressful on me. Just things seem more intense and I can't handle the extra stress. I'm trying here and it's hard. I'm not perfect. I'm human I'm 13 and I'm fucking going crazy from everything trying to be good. I know I'm not like everyone here. I'm messed up and I need that thing we all search for. I just want to be who I am without judgment or people saying what I did was bad weather it's what I say or do or even feel and think. I'm stressed out and I need that thing that makes me feel better. I just want what works.
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It got super bad after I got on here like way worse but it gets better. I'm better now than when I first joined. It's like what my therapist says sometimes it gets worse before it gets better.
Being at your age is very difficult. New hormonal levels and in your situation it's very tough to deal with. I had a hard time with it when I was your age(ish) and I can't imagine having no one else around. This is going to be tough but you're going to have to hold to your word to yourself and stick with it. Remember what I told you, you will lose her forever if it slips out.
I am sooo sorry I didn't see this journal earlier. It really doe get better you just have to trust the process. Hugs <3