Cant beleive it!!!

So i made the appointment for Ian to see Santa at the Phipps Plaze for Christmas!! I cant beleive i was able to do that. I can beleive i am going to be a mom in 8 weeks. Crazy crazy crazy. It sounds so far away yet so super close. He will be a littloe over 2 weeks when i take him on the 22nd of Decemebr.  James left last Monday for DC. We wont be a family agian ntil June. I never expected to spend my last trimester alone. I knwo its for teh better of our familt buti hate it. He is and will miss so much. I dont think its fair that i hav eto go through this alone and have a newborn alone. Yes I have amazing family and friends but its not the same as having my husband.  I did not sign up for this. When we got married there was never any talk of us being seperated for any length of time. Now this right in the middle of my pegnancy. Im having Ian in 2 months and we wont be together as a family until June. He will miss so much and it breaks my heart.