CANCELLED!!! tired, mad, discouraged, angry, sad..

well this stupid nurse didn't call!! I had to call her!! She told me that the doctor thinks they should cancel due to a "thing" on my ovary. They are thinking that it may be a left over shell from where I ovulated. They said that they see this often and it should go over away next cycle. If it doesnt, it could be a host of things that I don't even want to bother with... I am tired of this!! I am trying my best to be positive. I have to put this away for a while. I don't know if I want to continue. The pain of disappointment hurts so bad. I just want to continue to focus on my weight and losing at least 20 pounds. My mom was trying to talk to me and encourage me, but I didnt want to hear it. I feel like being alone and not thinking anymore about having kids!! If God wants me to have kids, why won't he just give me one??. WHy do I have to jump through Fiery hoops to get what most women can get so easily. THis is my horrible mood speaking and I pray that later I can speak more positive words. Right now I want to lay all of this down and leave it..