can't weaight

to get in to see my phicatrist ...I think this time I will make my apoint not so far inbetween ....it was fought going ...but I pulled through ...but I have a lot to talk to my doctor about ......can't sleep ....tonight ..I am tired ..but ..when I try to go to sleep my head just won't shut up ...kind of hard to sleep through that ......and I was thinking of all my friends that I just have not been able to catch up on .....I have to maney now .....so I am hoping my friends will message me ...........they had a dance at the home my dad is in they had to get all dressed up ...we have some good pictures of my dad dancing ..it still has it ....he had a huge smile on his face ..he had a lot of fun .....he is much happier since all his stuf is moved in ...I realy need to start moving ......tomorow is that day ...I am starting a painting .....I have two on the go and one I haven't started yet so ..if I get stuck on oe I can just switch to the next ....I am so tired of hiding who  I realy am .......has nothing to do with sex in any way or any form .....just somthing most people can't belive in .........I have said to much .....it is just bursting to come out ..but I am realy afraid it will be a big mistake ...take care everyone ...God bless