Can\'t stop thinking of HER

This Friday Destin, my friend Ria, & I are going to a speaker meeting. I am giving her her space and today I am going to try not to email her. We've been communicating via email lately and I want more & I know she doesn't. She is friendly & so am I BUT I know inside I wish it was more. I respect her & her will for recovery.  I've been working out twice a day...I wanna lose this weight. I don't weight myself BUT I do look in the mirror I need HELP :-) We'll I better get back to work. I need COFFEE.