Can't stop crying
I just can't stop crying today. Tess has been gone for over a month now. I just keep playing in my head horrible things that could have happened to her. I miss her so much and not knowing what has happened is making my mind run wild with what could have happened to her. The weather has been very hot, in the 100's and all I can think about is......to horrible to even write what I am thinking.
My doctor had to give me something to help me relax, mostly makes me sleep. I just miss you so much. The last time I saw you was July 14. You were crying and wanted my attention. I talked to you and petted you before going to bed. I told you all goodnight and that I would see you in the morning but you weren't there when I woke up. Your mama and sister's sit out in the yard every evening looking at the direction you would come from. They hang out on the porch like they are waiting for you. I hope you are okay and return home soon.
My doctor had to give me something to help me relax, mostly makes me sleep. I just miss you so much. The last time I saw you was July 14. You were crying and wanted my attention. I talked to you and petted you before going to bed. I told you all goodnight and that I would see you in the morning but you weren't there when I woke up. Your mama and sister's sit out in the yard every evening looking at the direction you would come from. They hang out on the porch like they are waiting for you. I hope you are okay and return home soon.
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Julie, my Heart\'s compassion is so with you at this time of downheartening stress. I would cry and be so upset and go to the back door every few minutes when Sebas would roam for a day or more. It is the hardest most frightening experience..to wait..and wait. My heart cries for you and the kitties who wait. We just have to hope she is OK where ever she is. Prayers and Hugs, Carol
This is really sad. To not know what happened is bad because if you did know at least you could have closure on that. Just remember, you are a loving person and you give so much love to your animals, and so many don\'t get that love. I am hoping things gets better for you, and I truly mean that. You are a very special person with a heart as big as gold when it comes to animals, and they are lucky to have you!
I am praying that your beloved Tess returns home to you. Animals are amazing, and have been known to find their way back home from incredible distances. My sister had a cat that was missing for six weeks. A thinner and dirty cat marked her return with meows at the door. Nobody knows what happened. There is still hope. Healing hugs to you, Angel!
Thank you all for commenting on my journal. Today has been another rough day. I just keep crying and begging, yes begging God to bring her home. None of my cats have wondered off before, I have one or two that might miss one feeding but that\'s about it.
I have these neighbors who are an older couple and they are nice but they do not like cats in their yard. They have been known to trap cats and the woman sometimes late at night waits for cats to come in her yard and shoots them with a pellet gun. Last month she shot at a little black cat that lives next door to them. They won\'t admit that they do this but I was out that late night and heard the cat crying in horrible pain in her back yard. It was not a cat fight.Shadow comes to my house in the morning\'s and she was all bloody with a wound on her back end. When they trap cats they do not take them to the Humane Society, they take them out in the middle of nowhere and release them. Tess cuts through the yard to come to my house, I don\'t want to believe they would do anything as she has been cutting through the yard for a couple of years now but maybe they got tired of it and trapped her. I have asked them several times if they have seen her and they keep telling me no. I keep thinking what if they took her and dumped her and she is all alone and starving. I have been feeding them since they were babies and they have never had to search for food or water.
I cant imagine what you must be going through... I am thinking of you...
I,M SO SORRY TESS IS MISSING ..LOTS OF PRAYERS