Can\'t Sleep..Stuck in a Mental Mass of Confusion

    Last night I couldn't sleep. I also couldn't breathe for some weird reason. I thought I was going to get panic attacks again, but I didn't get the usual tingling feeling  and darkened vision that I normally get when I have one, so I wasn't as worried. I went to bed at 2am and didn't fall asleep until 6:30am! I only had 2 & 1/2 hours  of sleep and for some reason, my mind is so full of worries. I know I shouldn't feel like this, but I feel old and just having the same old feeling of not ever finding that someone. I guess it's because I don't go out. The thing is, I don't have anyone to go out with. I only have a few friends that call me a few times a month and these friends have families and their own lives. There's people at school, but most of the kids there are barely out of high school or not around my age. Don't get me wrong, I'm friendly to everyone, but generally, I know it's more satisfying when you're friends with someone you have alot in common with. I'm just really sad and have been for the past couple of days. Also, because I haven't been able to enjoy the two weeks of vacation I have because I had to run so many errands and school starts in 4 days!! What I truely wish for is to go on a trip to New York with a few good friends for a week!! I wish I could've done that, but I have no friends to go out with or that would go out with me for a trip. I really don't know what to do. I keep hoping, but hoping isn't getting me anywhere.