Can't seem to stop crying
I am already dooming this cycle because hubby and I only BDed 4 or 5 days prior to me getting the smiley face and 10 whole hours after I got the smiley face, I am sooo upset and can't stop crying because it's like he says he wants the same thing, but is not willing to put the effort. I have never been this emotional, but I am sooo going to blame him if this cycle don't work, I am so not even feeling him right now, can't even stand to look at him, he knew how crucial this was and he ruined it for me. I just want my Nevaeh back, but she is gone and a part of me is gone with her, will never be the same. I am not trying to replace my baby girl, just want to be a mommy so bad (I am a mommy to angel). I have been crying soo much since last night, sometimes I feel like I'm chocking, just sooo sad
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4-5 days is about how long healthy sperm live....that\'s good that they were up there waiting. 10 whole hours? Wow,your egg only stays for no more than 24 hours so.....you are in good shape. don\'t stress it. you really should have had plenty of guys on the frontline so to speak. i know you miss your
baby and want to be a mommy but it will happen will happen. eat pineapple core for implantation and relax. easier said than done i know. if you need to talk i will be online today.
tracy
Thank you so much Tracy, but I would have preffered 1-3 days prior to me getting the smiley face, I got the positive at 12:00PM when I normally do the test and was at work until 8PM and he was at work until 9PM so we weren\'t able to BD until 10PM that night, I know in my heart that I\'m out of it, I am blaming him because wated to BD and he was always tired, I understand he is tired cause he work long shifts, but I\'m tired too, but knew it was for a cause uuggghhh, broke down last night and still breaking down at work, everyone wants to know what\'s wrong, I feel soo helpless, thank you so much will take you up on that offer, thank you for the advice. I have no hope for this cycle and if it doesn\'t work, might just give up :(
I\'m sorry you\'re so upset right now dear. Please don\'t give up hope. If you dont believe me read up on preseed and how it helps lengthen the life of sperm because of the environment it creates. Don\'t cry my cycle buddy it makes me sad that you\'re so sad. HUGS!!!
I am so sorry you are going through you loss. I have had a horrible cycle too. I practically had to beg for my husband to BD with me, and it still wasn\'t enough to even get pregnant. I was saying this very same thing a couple of blogs ago. It made me so angry and miserable. I am not even sure if I ovulated this month or not. It didn\'t show up on any test strips so I am thinking I havent. I keep having these pains in my right side too, whatever that is all about. Don\'t count yourself out yet, you did BD after you got the smiley face and you dont\' even ovulate until 24-48 hrs after that so keep you head up girl. It could still be your cycle.
Thank you Tunishe, just don\'t understand why I am soo upset with this cycle, oh wait I do because my doc upped my dosage and I bought all of these fertility items and still the cycle failed and you know why because hubby was having tiredness issues, it just hurt soo much that I know we didn\'t give it 100% shoot not even 50%, I try to relax and not think about it, the more I think about it the more I miss Neveah and don\'t see a rainbow baby in the near future, I may take a break after this, it\'s getting overwhelming and I am beggining to lose myself in this ttc journey
Tell me about it, I\'ve heard that guys were so into BDing so what\'s going on here, why do we have to initiate this, it\'s like we have to work on their schedule, I\'ve never been too tired when he wanted it so why can\'t I have it when I want even if he\'s tired and it\'s for 1 or 2 weeks out of the month geez, It does upset me greatly when you start feeling like you are begging them for it, ooohhh the more I think about it the more the tears dry up and gets me upset, but I don\'t know for sure when I got the LH surge since I only test within 24 hours, when I tested the next day it was gone so who knows. I am soo sorry that you are having such a hard time as well, it really shouldn\'t be this stressful when it comes to having a baby, but DH make it soo hard sometimes, I don\'t do well with the strips smh that\'s why I got the digital, wow your cycles are long, have you gone to the doctors for it, that was me could go months without a cycle and was put on metformin and I am now on clomid to regulate it more and make me ovulate
My cycles have always ranged in the 6 week mark, never had trouble getting pregnant the first time at 16. I have ovulated the last two cycles but one of the cycles me and DH were fighting GRR. I am going to call my Dr. this month about clomid or something to regulate my cycles. I do take progesterone if I don\'t get my cycle but that doesn\'t make me ovulate it just makes me bleed. Why is it that they want it so bad any other time but the important week a month, they are so tired and couldn\'t possibly handle even a quickie! How annoying!My Dr. Will probably want me to lose weight before I get put on any drugs but honestly I don\'t want to lose weight, I don\'t have the motivation right now.
i am so sorry :( my DH has done the same thing before. or acted pissy when we have to do it and that really pisses me off....because it makes me think he doesn\'t think i\'m attractive. :(
I just feel like he doesn\'t want this as bad as I do, but in reality he does or at least that is what he says. I just think men think a lot differently then women do. They just don\'t stress about it on the level that we do. They just plain ol\' don\'t get it!!!
OMG, I just read this! I CAN SOOOOOOOOOOO relate to your post! My DH wanted it basically put it n God\'s hands it was basically getting to the point where he was annoyed at scheduled BD\'s! I am so sorry! Guys dont get it!!! Hopefully you were able to BD in time...YOU NEVER know:)!!!