Can't get it out of my head

My mother told me to kill myself on Christmas eve. 
She doesn't believe that I have ever tried to kill myself before (six times!) and she doesn't believe I have any mental illness.   To her, it's just an excuse.   She knows better than multiple doctors in different states. (She barely finished high school.)   She is just a mean vicious woman who would be happy if I were gone.
I can't get it out of my head but I refuse to ruin the holidays for my own children. 
How can any woman who calls herself a mother be so cruel?   She wants me dead.

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Ladybug7
Ladybug7

That is absolutely horrible for anyone to say! And coming from your mother?!? That\'s beyond cruel. I hope you\'re able to distance yourself from her negativity. You deserve better than that!