Can\'t get going today

I thought yesterday i was feeling a little better but today i seem not to be able to get going.Ijust find myself sitting and not thinking anything but thinking bout everything my head just spinning.Yesterday i kept just welling up not actually crying but full of tears and a strong sense of emotions, very overwhelming. Then it would go and i just got on.we scatter dads ashes tomorrow perhaps thats why i feel so down.

On a high note a few friends and i are going to do the race for life.One of my friends losted her dad before christmas and the other a few years back so were be there for each other as i think the day will be hard.I'm running in memory for my dad but also on that day i'll be remembering all your fathers too.

Dad ,i can imagine now you sitting in your chair laughing at me saaying doing the race for life well i can tell you i won't be running so stop laughing.Ha Ha.I'll know you'll be proud of me just as i was of you as you went down this path.Always on my mind,forever in my heart.Love you daddy.xxxxxxxx