Can\'t believe I\'ve been away this long

I joined a sober website and to tell you the truth it has done nothing for me but make me feel more insecure and made me want to drink. I'm finding that those kind of sites are filled with people like myself that stopped growing emoitionally when we started to drink. Therefore we all sound like a bunch of 16 year olds. I met a woman there who lives just two towns away from me and she took me to a meeting.  So I went with her to an AA meeting and was met with some abuse from the chairman because he thought I talked during his sharing time. He turned around, looked me in the eye and said "shut up when I am talking!" Needless to say, I ran out, it was embarrasing, the woman who took me hasn't talked to me since. I never have any good experiences at those meetings! Well, I'm not blaming anyone but myself. I guess my head is just not there yet and I don't want to become a dry drunk.  I will just keep trying, that's all I can do.