Can I enjoy life?

Can I enjoy life?  I’ve put myself into what I feel is an awful situation that will not be resolved for several years or longer. I have suffered for 20+ years with anxiety/depression but never as bad as the last 4 months. I recently started Prozac and therapy (couple of weeks). My anxiety seems to be less but my depression seems worse. Everyday I wakeup to a seemingly endless supply of sadness. I feel this empty sad hopeless feeling would go away if my situation was resolved…but I can not wait for years.   I have a loving girlfriend, supportive family/friends, a decent job…why am I so sad when I have a good life? I guess it doesn’t matter what causes the sadness…it hurts just as bad no matter the reason. I’m so mad at myself for everything I just want to scream! Every day feels like the last…an empty joyless existence. God I just want to live again! I want to enjoy life and look forward to upcoming events! I want weekends to be special again and vacations to matter! I want to see the beauty in life and just be at peace with myself!   When I was young I so looked forward to trips with my friends! We had as much enjoyment months before the trip just talking about it as we did on the trip itself! I felt there was so much fun ahead and looked forward to those trips for months and months! I used to look forward to Friday nights out and Saturday nights out! I would be happy the whole week just thinking about the weekend! Now I feel nothing. Nothing to look forward to but work and paying bills.  I made the mistake of trying to plan for the future. I thought I had it all figured out but I was wrong. No one else seems to think I made the biggest mistake of my life…but I do. Do I beat myself up for the next several years and live in this hopeless state of self pity? God have mercy on us all…this is not the life intended!   My depression is selfish…it takes joy from my loved ones…it puts stress on relationships….I need something to get me through until my situation can be resolved but what? Medicine and therapy are a good start and I thank God I made that decision but ultimately something inside my head needs to click!  What can I do to get passed my self anger? How can I get back the spark of excitement I had so long ago? My girlfriend and friends plan weekends, vacations yet I have no excitement or joy. That spark of looking forward to life is gone right now…..AND I WANT IT BACK! God please bring it back….it will come back some day…until then what do I do?