Camp and Now.

I went to the Young People's camp over the weekend, with my church. And I had a great time! We had many meetings with enjoyable messages and we sang such wonderful songs! And the best was I talked to some of the people from Church! And well I travelled in the same van that John was in! ( I was so freaked! I felt like I wanted to vomit all the time!) And it was great to be so close to him for so long. But when he was sitting opposite me, it freaked me out! Because it felt like, (to me) his eyes were boring into my bowed head. And well it made me to nervous to even look him in the eye. Whence making me feel once again, rude and pathetic.Whence why, I am hating being back at course, with this thought going round my head about how I will always be alone.