Calm before the storm

  The weekend was rather soothing yet it leaves me weary.  My x agreed to bring the kids over to my mothers house today for my dad's birthday lunch.  As with all her visits she was cordial.  This always leaves me wary because she is always like that before she drops another one me. It was the most time I have gotten to spend with the my in a year so it was welcomed.  My oldest is still her distant self.  My younger two kids were as lovable as always.  My son is starving for affection poor little guy.  He and I are going to have so much fun once visitation is giving back.  My little wonder pixie was as precious as always.  I am still amazed how much she wants me eventhough her mother does not let her see me that often.  She is quite the character.  I was also amazed by how much that little person could eat.  I pray that some day I can have more time with my kids.  All of that is in God's hands now.  I have done the next right things.  I have stayed sober. Now all that awaits is some kind of decision from the court.  2 more days!!!  I know better than to keep stock in the court.  I have been screwed again and again.  Regardless of what happens Wednesday I will be sober.   I wont be going at it alone.  I have my sponsor with me to me keep out of myself during the day.  I also have a loving God that has only my best interests in mind.  I will put stock in the Lord and accept his will.  Thank all of you for the prayers and the words of support.