Calm

well at the moment everything is calm. havent heard from no need to be named since sunday so everything has calmed down now. well we did have a few bits go off on monday and tues where i started to break down uncontrollably then proceeded to hit our front door. yeah i did more damage to my hand than the door. but it got my frustration out. oh and i had a good few mins on my own having a cigarette..( does anyone else smoke?) so since then nothing and all is calm. i will still have to be with her all morning of my wedding as she is still having her hair done and makeup with myself and my other bridemaid....i know cheeky cow. but i know how i can get away if i need to. the old i need fresh air and clear my mind speach will work wonders to get away from her for a while. but on a better note. this time in 7 days i will be a married woman.....yay!!! and then sorry guys but will be away for a week on our honey moon and i cant wait. i will sooooo miss coming on here and i bet i will have o much to write when i get back...lol im having a good clear out and im becoming a clean freak when i get stressed out, is this normal?? well at least the house is clean i got so behind with all sorts going on and catching up is always so hard. especially when my partner can create such a mess in a couple of seconds. bless him he does try. well happy face today : ) and confidance and happiness will be going up too now i feel so much better thanx to some very special friends of mine. xx