But what if you love the wrong type of person or so the world thinks

I am so in love with someone. I think they have an idea of what i feel but maybe they have to ignore it for the benifit of our relationship. I often dream of this person and me sharing a life and never being alone. It is so out of the ordinary for me. When i think of this person i feel so comforted my thoughts turn happy from sad. they seem to have so much power. But then my heart is saddened andthere are two reasons this could never be. Because i was given an std as a result of rape. and two this  person could never love me. Sometimes i wish i were a man because this situation would be more accepted. I hesitate to even speak of it aloud because it will change peoples views of me. I am so in love but it kills me to hide what i feel. When i think of this person the facts that i have been raped just drift away. Besides what will my children think. Will i ever have a child if i choose this path. I would love not to be alone and afraid.