Business as Usual

Only finished one puzzle this morning and that was none too graceful. Cognitive functions impaired. Sigh. My 165 IQ becomes a liability when my cognitive functions are impaired. Keep it on the awareness radar. Deal with the emotional yaddahs which werenae measured on the IQ tests. Yucko bucko, but nature delivers me more imperatives to deal with those emotional yaddahs than she gives the average human imperatives to understand geophysics. Onward through the emotional confusion. The sooner begun, the sooner done. In the kiddie whorehouses, it was necessity to set personal preferences aside and work with what life gave me. That was then, this is now. I have acquired the luxury of being able to let personal preference count. Now to trust luxury. . . Money allows the masking of some truly hideous dysfunctions. Money isnae the only luxury in civilized human culture.

I prefer navigable rivers. Texas has none. The small navigable portion of the Red River is U.S. Army Corps of Engineers and it doesn't go far. It dead-ends a few miles shy of the Mississippi River Control complex. The reservoirs along the other Texas rivers are watery sandboxes. Play spaces. You can't get far on them.

I disprefer boom logic, wherever in the world I find it. Growth is good, but the most sustainable growth happens slowly. An adolescant sequoia tree is strong BECAUSE it grows slowly. Out of control "progress" is. . . Unmanageable? Unsustainable? I prefer not to stand in its path, wherever in the world I find it. To my senses, a boom is a boom is a boom, no matter the location or first language of the boom investors and/or labourers.

I donae trust my in-laws. I donae even know them well enough to know if I like them, or knot. They are *simply* unavailable on a level my strictly personals can understand. With Mister Surname gone, I have been attempting to remain objective about that mysterious brother-in-law branch on the other side of Mister Surname's now demolished living room, but it isnae going well. Their assurances of love, respect and support sound like the Surname family business as usual. I FEEL like they like the idealized family more than the real me. Expect the executive denial and take-overs at the first violation of secret clauses. The Surname in charge is a woman on the other family branch, but I donae see significant differences between male and female executives. I am an EEO Skeptic.

That feels like enough emotional yaddah for this step. Let's see how she processes. Think I'll test her on another number puzzle and/or some guit-chi. The new song was coming along nicely as of yesterday morning in Madill. My appetite has been voracious. I ate almost as much as a normal USan last night. Still waking from what feel like they would have been nightmares in my more reactive days, but sinking back into sleep easily. ES woke me from one such dream at 1:56 a.m., wondering if I had heard from hubs. He was MIA. Hubs MIA at 1:56 a.m.? Unprecedented! Still. . . Not mine to sort. . . I sunk back into sleep easily. I don't even remember the dream ES woke me from.