bus route......

so on wednesday i'm gonna be at this collge is wisconsin and i'm meeting with a Deaf teacher and the head of the program to do an assessment.....i have no idea if they're gonna make me sign, what questions they'll ask, and i don't know what i'll do etc. etc.....now my dad is taking off wednesday to take me to the college....i don't even know if i'm gonna GO to this college, it's a choice.....there's a bus stop right by my parents' house and the latest the bus leaves is at 6:40 a.m.......so my dad wants us to get on that fucking bus so that i can "get used" to bus route....in order to get ready in time i hafta get up at fucking 5:30a.m.....so i won't really even get 8 hours of sleep.....so then my dad and i will arrive at the college and explore for x amount of time....then i have the assessment whatever....then my mom said that the bus that leaves to come BACK is at, like, fucking 5:30 p.m.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so worried and anxious now that i'm gonna be so tired at the assessment and in such a bad mood and so tired that i'll cry or forget or something that i'll do such a bad job!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can't we just fucking DRIVE and then if i decide to go there to fucking THEN take the fucking bus.....i'm swearing so much because i'm angry and worried and anxious and a total fucking mess....