bummer

hello journal,  im not feeling that great today, i dont know why....have had a feeling that panic is just around the corner, so i have challenged it to come....i am trying to be strong but in the back of my mind i still dread the fact that it could happen....catch 22 again!!!! I am watching the discovery channel just now and it is a programme about the uss indianapolis sinking in 1945..........my god what they guys had to go through just sort of brings your own problems into a sort of perspective.....i couldnt imagine being in the proximity of one shark in its own environment let alone tens perhaps hundreds of them....those men definatley went to hell and back....i have a lot of respect for people like that and lets hope the have a peacefull life now...... ttfn xxx