Bullying
This topic is no stranger to me, as I have been bullied for most of my life. Started with my biological Father and moved on to my stepfather. I have been bullied by friends and strangers I don't know. Now all I know is my soul hurts from being bullied and I am skeptical about meeting people and showing the world who I am.
There are people in my family who hold deep grudges and never forgive anybody. Many times I have been ignore, excluded from various family events and other things. Tis one time, when I got so sick that I genuinely needed help, I was shoved to the side and abandoned. After an incident of that would happen I would cut my family out.
Now the bullies are still there and persist. I hardly see my family and I am still excluded from stuff. I call over to a relative's house, they just won't answer or give me the time of day. This drains my energy.
I had an Ex friend of mine tell me to keep in touch and that it was all right to call him. This one time, I called up and his girlfriend answered the phone and tore a strip off of me. She said such cruel and vicious things to me. It left me traumatized. It still bothers me to this day, I get overwhelmed and anxiety comes then I can't relax. This was a while back ago and I have not been able to come to terms with it.
This had effected the need to meet new friends and to be myself. Sadly, my view of the world and the people in it have become cynical but I am working on being more optimistic.
I read somewhere online that it is the bully who has the issues, not the one who is being bullied. In regards to me ex, even though I was following through with his request to keep in touch - I go through periods of blaming myself.
In regards to my family, I have no clue as to what to do about them. They show favorites and helps each other out but I always get rejected and told no - suffer.
I just wish things would straighten up and go away. No wonder at times I question my self worth.
ID out
There are people in my family who hold deep grudges and never forgive anybody. Many times I have been ignore, excluded from various family events and other things. Tis one time, when I got so sick that I genuinely needed help, I was shoved to the side and abandoned. After an incident of that would happen I would cut my family out.
Now the bullies are still there and persist. I hardly see my family and I am still excluded from stuff. I call over to a relative's house, they just won't answer or give me the time of day. This drains my energy.
I had an Ex friend of mine tell me to keep in touch and that it was all right to call him. This one time, I called up and his girlfriend answered the phone and tore a strip off of me. She said such cruel and vicious things to me. It left me traumatized. It still bothers me to this day, I get overwhelmed and anxiety comes then I can't relax. This was a while back ago and I have not been able to come to terms with it.
This had effected the need to meet new friends and to be myself. Sadly, my view of the world and the people in it have become cynical but I am working on being more optimistic.
I read somewhere online that it is the bully who has the issues, not the one who is being bullied. In regards to me ex, even though I was following through with his request to keep in touch - I go through periods of blaming myself.
In regards to my family, I have no clue as to what to do about them. They show favorites and helps each other out but I always get rejected and told no - suffer.
I just wish things would straighten up and go away. No wonder at times I question my self worth.
ID out
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