Building Walls?

1/11/2018

Screw everything, everyone, and who the hell else cares. Today already feels like a horrible day, and it just started. I feel invisible, like not even the people who are closest to me see me or hear me. I know I take things negatively, but I wish that I didn’t have to take the negative out of everything that anyone says…. I don’t even know how to take a comment. Ended up starting a fight because I don’t know how he meant what he said. When he said ‘oh, so you’ll need gas tomorrow.’, it could have been teasing, just a comment, or a snide remark at me. Honestly, I just want to put up walls around my emotions and not let anyone see those. Maybe then when I speak my opinion people can hear that over the negative self-talk, and the putrefaction that I put myself through. To be honest, it doesn’t feel like the emotions are worth having.