Buddies

I'm starting to relax around the ladies, now that I've determined that I'm really looking for a buddy more than a sexual or romantic thing right now.  Bottom line is--I'm looking for a buddy to replace the buddy that I lost, my brother.  My next-door neighbor, Sean, is a good guy who kinda fills that void, even though it takes him 8 beers and bowl of weed to relax himeslf (nobody's perfect).   These buddies can be male or female.  The problem is, women have their own needs that include feeling beautiful and desirable, and don't want to be thought of by a man they're interested in as merely a "buddy".  I'm beginning to level with any girl I casually meet where there might be something sexual or romantic there, who seems remotely interested in me (there have been a few since Jan. '07) and say "you're very beautiful and sexy, but my heart isn't all there yet" meaning "my heart isn't entirely into you".  Maybe once I have a buddy to relax with, then that will give me some emotional cush to then pursue a women for sexual and romantic adventures, and, knowing that I have the buddy to fall back on and talk with if the sexual romantic thing goes south, a breakup with a woman won't be so bad-!  We need all kinds of love, folks.  My brother was indeed that buddy.  We relied on each other for emotional support and ego boosting, and getting along without him is still so sad and so difficult... Happy Memorial Day!  Let's say a prayer or two for the brave folks out there risking their lives for a free Iraq, so we can get the hell out of there and leave the country in good shape.