Brother

My twin brother was going to be coming over on the 20th June, I havent seen him in months.  I wanted to go out on the town with him like we used to and just have fun.  He told me today he can't come over, his work cancelled his holiday :(. Would I be wrong in thinking things are just not meant to happen for me? I mean really, the woman part I can understand, Im pug ugly, have zero charm, zero charisma etc.  I can handle that.  But seeing my brother was keeping me going, just being around him makes me feel better.  :( I fucking hate this place, everything about it and myself so much right now. If I hadn't cut my arm to shreds last night I'd be doing it now. /sigh