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Is this taking my brother's inventory? I dont' know. I guess it's not if I'm writing in my journal, just to sort out my thoughts, I'm not exactly speaking to him about it... so it doesn't count, right... Went to church today for my nephew's baptism. My brother stayed long enough for the baptism, and then split. He was out all night, and didn't make the soup he was supposed to make for the luncheon afterwards, so he had to leave church, rush to the store, buy stuff for soup, and MAKE the soup, within space of an hour and half or so..I'm judging. I'm relieved that I'm not involved in that life anymore. And watching my brother continue with it... reinforces my resolve. But it also calls me to... what... I can't talk to him, it' s not my business to prostelytize. He has to want out, he has to ask for help, right? Or is that right? Am I called here? If I know something that would help my brother, if I'm able to choose the right words, if I have a message of hope for him... can I do more good than harm? He's struggling. I know that from talking with his wife. I'm always sticking my nose in his business. But last time I did that, it was when I was drinking, and I was mostly full of shit. This time I'm sober... maybe still full of shit... but I feel more... grounded. I just do.
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