Breakingdown

TODAY I WATCHED THE MOVIE ARMAGEDEON WITH BRUCE WILLIS. THERE IS A SAD SCENE TOWARDS THE END WHEN HE IS SAYING GOODBYE TO HIS DAUGHTER AND IT WAS A REALLY MOVING SCENE. WHILE I WAS WATCHING THAT SCENE, I COULDNT HELP BUT THINK '' MY DAD WAS NOTHING LIKE THAT, HE DOESNT LOVE ME, HE DOESNT CARE''. I BROKE DOWN AND CRIED ASKING MYSELF ' WHY DID HE LEAVE? WHY DIDNT HE STAY? I NEEDED HIM''. FOR A LONG TIME I'VE BEEN ANGRY AND I NEVER REALLY CRIED OVER THAT KIND OF GRIEF OF BEING ABANDONED. A PART OF ME BLAMES MYSELF BECAUSE I FEEL IM THE REASON HE LEFT. WHAT COULD BE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR OWN CHILD? IM STILL TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES BUT ALL  I CAN SAY IS NOW THAT I'M OLDER AND BECAUSE MY MOM WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO STAYED AND RAISED ME, I DONT NEED MY DAD ANYMORE. I'M TRYING TO GET TO THE PLACE OF INDEPENDENCE. I DONT NEED MY DAD, HE WONT BE A PART OF MY LIFE.