BREAKING POINT

Thanks for the comments...IS IT NOT ENOUGH THAT KEN DIED...THAT MORE AND MORE
ISh AND MORE...WHAT DOES ONE (OTHERS) THINK YOU CAN DO...I AM AFRAID I AM ALMOST TO THE BREAKING POINT
As I sit here in the wee morning of the day 3:00 a.m. I really really don't know what to do............I tried to sleep...HE TAKES THE whole BED...won't move 1/2 inch for me to have a bit of room..so I just get up again ...3 hours sleep...for over a month now....
I am totally disgusted with my husband...I want some peace...some rest...but he is too...going to prove he can do what he wants...Now it is 5:00 a.m. he is up..making noise that means he will wake up mom........IT JUST WON'T STOP...
WHAT DO I DO?????
Finally, I think I have gotten my mom to understand why she can't go to a nursing home...hopefully that will help with the questions....
Now my f.....husband says he has had enough cause of how I talk to him...He don't deserve me talking any different..I ask for certain things be done that he needs to do and HE'S tired of it...I HAVE BEEN TIRED OF IT FOR 15 YEARS....
GOD, WHY DO I FEEL I AM BEING PUNISHED OVER AND OVER...KEN..DIES...IT IS HORRIBLE..
NOW ALL THIS GARBAGE...I CAN HANDLE MY MOM...NOT SURE I CAN HANDLE ALL OF IT...........
HERE IS A FOR INSTANCE :  the house is a mess...I had just got home looking to buy a chair....sweating like a pig...finally, just went a purchased a new one...got  home...have to help lift it out of the truck..hurts me...then finally I tell him to call a neighbor ..after complaining a lot...he calls...boy comes to help....so much to be done...next thing I know he is off and running to ride in a car with someone...Beyond my words with the pressures I have...the things that need doing...before we can even go to bed, he goes for a joy ride...while I still have to continue to handle the stress of everything.
3 a.m. I could have slept...but NOOOOOOO, he would not give me an inch..I am on the bed...he is spread out taking the bed...then says he is on the edge...funny how he has his whole room...on the bed and mine too....but he is on the edge......
Not one bit of consideration for me...never...it is his way or no way...yet he lies..does to me as pleases and I am suppose to continue to want to be with him...I DON"T but the  bastard won't go away...
thanks for letting me vent....I feel better now....still stressed to the max...
Sandi...