break up and starting over
it's over between Matthew and i....
he has moved out. he made the decision suddenly on Friday and started right then and there to move. i guess maybe he thought i would beg him to stay? but NO. i'm tired of his damn drama!
here's the short version:
we were doing couples therapy for 3 months and things were going well (other than the fact that he got off his anti depressants, but he was going thru psycho therpay and that was going well too)... but then this past week he suddenly got on some high horse and kept talking down to me, lecturing me, yelling at me for hours in a condescending manner... Friday morning at 4 AM he kept me awake for hrs doing exactly that!!! i told him to get the hell out of my bed and go to another room so i could sleep but he refused! no matter what i said, he refused! it ascelated (turning all the lights on, banging things around in the room, anyhting to keep me awake) till mom had to come in and seperate us. that's when i told him to get some clothing and leave the house for the day to give us some space.
a few hours later is when he called me to tell me he was moving out.
there's a lot more to the story but i'm keeping it short. i'm done with his mood swings and lack of anger control. done with his demeaning talks and condescending lectures. he says he'll fix things and be a better boy freind and then he'll do it for like a short bit then go back to being a dick. well, it's over and i'm done with it. NO MORE.
i'm heart broken that the love of my life is no longer the love of my life. i loved him with all my heart and NEVER felt this close to anyone before. BUT i deserve better and i WILL find better. my heart is in pain for now but in due time i'll get over it.... i always get back up.
thanks to any of my freinds that read this and thanks for your support.take care and God bless!
he has moved out. he made the decision suddenly on Friday and started right then and there to move. i guess maybe he thought i would beg him to stay? but NO. i'm tired of his damn drama!
here's the short version:
we were doing couples therapy for 3 months and things were going well (other than the fact that he got off his anti depressants, but he was going thru psycho therpay and that was going well too)... but then this past week he suddenly got on some high horse and kept talking down to me, lecturing me, yelling at me for hours in a condescending manner... Friday morning at 4 AM he kept me awake for hrs doing exactly that!!! i told him to get the hell out of my bed and go to another room so i could sleep but he refused! no matter what i said, he refused! it ascelated (turning all the lights on, banging things around in the room, anyhting to keep me awake) till mom had to come in and seperate us. that's when i told him to get some clothing and leave the house for the day to give us some space.
a few hours later is when he called me to tell me he was moving out.
there's a lot more to the story but i'm keeping it short. i'm done with his mood swings and lack of anger control. done with his demeaning talks and condescending lectures. he says he'll fix things and be a better boy freind and then he'll do it for like a short bit then go back to being a dick. well, it's over and i'm done with it. NO MORE.
i'm heart broken that the love of my life is no longer the love of my life. i loved him with all my heart and NEVER felt this close to anyone before. BUT i deserve better and i WILL find better. my heart is in pain for now but in due time i'll get over it.... i always get back up.
thanks to any of my freinds that read this and thanks for your support.take care and God bless!
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