Break the Habit.

I had to try, and break a habit. I've changed my mind on her, now I can't have it. She made me feel so alive. I had nothing to hide, but I went chasing after something else. I have only myself to blame I knew it would turn into disaster. The only thing I've ever loved...up in flames. I was running with my heart from my chest. I put my soul into this I can't control myself. Why do I still try to chase this? I can only hold my breath. Everything we ever had is gone &  I'm going insane trying to forget. I hate myself now that I still want her. I'm just wasting my time, must be out of my fucking mind. Still chasing after disaster...