boy did I screw up
So I drank so much last night I have been sick all day. I don't know why. All day I have no desire, but then find myself drinking. I know so much about alcohol abuse mentally, but cannot seem to know what triggers me. I feel so ashamed. I let my wife down, I let myself down, and I feel like such a failure. I have been working for years on trying to wake up, to be aware to no avail.