Bluesday
Dearest,
I didn't officially get out of bed today until 1:30 pm. Oh sure I was up at 6:00am and ate breakfast and fed the cats but I went right back to bed after that. I slept more than 12 hours! I was up a bit during the night but nothing extreme.
Last night I went out to look at the moon about 2:00am, it was cold so I didn't stay out long. When I went out though I realized that I'd left the light on for you. In case you came home late? When I came back in I turned it off, that was so upsetting, so hard to do. Made me cry. Why am I doing this? I know that you're not coming home again. I am so in denial. Today I put one of those solar powered Christmas candles in the front window, so you can find your way home. Trouble is, I'm the one who's lost, I'm lonesome and I can't find my way home. I'm lost in so many ways.
I did all the packing and shipping, most of the mail and started on the Thank You cards. I'm running out of cards already, going to have to go out and buy more. I don't wanna go out! {pout} I have to bring all this stuff to the Post Office tomorrow, the stack is about three feet high. I guess I could stop by the store on the same trip. I still don't wanna. Maybe I got too much sleep, I sure am feeling bad again. How do I get back to where I belong, no one has an answer. My shrink won't talk to me, she said I have to channel my anger into constructive action. What the f___ does that mean? I said I don't need platitudes I need a direction. I made her cry I think, now she won't talk to me.
Still no dead mouse, they had it last night and were playing cat tennis with it on the freshly waxed kitchen floor, poor thing. This morning I was SO hungry, now, not so much. I guess I'll force myself to eat something in a bit. Tomorrow I'll wrap the grandsons' gifts and I guess go to the Post Office. Tonight I'll just sit around and feel sorry for me! You can call me Ramses ( King of de Nile)
Till tomorrow, sadly, Your Ken
I didn't officially get out of bed today until 1:30 pm. Oh sure I was up at 6:00am and ate breakfast and fed the cats but I went right back to bed after that. I slept more than 12 hours! I was up a bit during the night but nothing extreme.
Last night I went out to look at the moon about 2:00am, it was cold so I didn't stay out long. When I went out though I realized that I'd left the light on for you. In case you came home late? When I came back in I turned it off, that was so upsetting, so hard to do. Made me cry. Why am I doing this? I know that you're not coming home again. I am so in denial. Today I put one of those solar powered Christmas candles in the front window, so you can find your way home. Trouble is, I'm the one who's lost, I'm lonesome and I can't find my way home. I'm lost in so many ways.
I did all the packing and shipping, most of the mail and started on the Thank You cards. I'm running out of cards already, going to have to go out and buy more. I don't wanna go out! {pout} I have to bring all this stuff to the Post Office tomorrow, the stack is about three feet high. I guess I could stop by the store on the same trip. I still don't wanna. Maybe I got too much sleep, I sure am feeling bad again. How do I get back to where I belong, no one has an answer. My shrink won't talk to me, she said I have to channel my anger into constructive action. What the f___ does that mean? I said I don't need platitudes I need a direction. I made her cry I think, now she won't talk to me.
Still no dead mouse, they had it last night and were playing cat tennis with it on the freshly waxed kitchen floor, poor thing. This morning I was SO hungry, now, not so much. I guess I'll force myself to eat something in a bit. Tomorrow I'll wrap the grandsons' gifts and I guess go to the Post Office. Tonight I'll just sit around and feel sorry for me! You can call me Ramses ( King of de Nile)
Till tomorrow, sadly, Your Ken
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