Blood test Day
Totally forgot about this today with everything that has happened. Did the blood test then promptly forgot why I was doing it...so when the fertility nurse rang I had a complete mind blank. Its all systems go. I don't think she could figure out why I sounded so flat about it over the phone.
Tuesday is the big day...after tomorrow obviously.
I am shitting myself...its a bigger deal than I thought and now I am scared.
I am calling on anyone on here that takes time out to read the rantings of a crazy self obsessed woman to please pray that I get a good result. I just don't think I can face losing everything we have worked so hard for.
I just feel so bad for my husband. He didn't sign up to this when he married me. He signed for a long and happy life together with loads of children. Instead, he gets a harrowing struggle followed by IVF followed by a complete and utter miracle that is our baby...followed by more struggles, FET and now Cancer. I just feel like I am responsible for all of his suffering at the moment. I just wish I could take it all away for him.
Ok self indulgent sobfest over. As one of my friends says: "put your hair in a bun, have a coffee, put on some gansta rap and get it done."
Tuesday is the big day...after tomorrow obviously.
I am shitting myself...its a bigger deal than I thought and now I am scared.
I am calling on anyone on here that takes time out to read the rantings of a crazy self obsessed woman to please pray that I get a good result. I just don't think I can face losing everything we have worked so hard for.
I just feel so bad for my husband. He didn't sign up to this when he married me. He signed for a long and happy life together with loads of children. Instead, he gets a harrowing struggle followed by IVF followed by a complete and utter miracle that is our baby...followed by more struggles, FET and now Cancer. I just feel like I am responsible for all of his suffering at the moment. I just wish I could take it all away for him.
Ok self indulgent sobfest over. As one of my friends says: "put your hair in a bun, have a coffee, put on some gansta rap and get it done."
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It seems like you should give your husband a little more credit as to what he can handle. I am sure that he loves you and your baby and any other future babies that you are going to have. No one knows the future when you sign-up to get married, but I think realistically we all know it can\'t be all sunshine and roses all of the time. And on the roller coaster of life, there will come a day when he needs you just as much as you need him right now. And that is the beauty of marriage:) Also, today my Dr told me that May 5 is a very lucky day- it is Children\'s Day in his home country of Korea- and that lucky things related to children always happen on that day. I believe that May 5 was one of your important cycle dates, so I hope he is right! Oh, and gangsta rap always helps get shit done- love me some Tupac and Dr Dre!