Bloated

I am still waiting for AF to rear its ugly head...Last weekend I almost had a meltdown seeing all the children in church with their happy parents....Today it occured to me that we might be pregnant! I have not been taking care of myself like I usually would when I am preparing...maybe that is it...finally live your life and a curve ball is thrown...not that I do not want to be pregnant and have a child, but I have finally wrapped my mind around adopting that persons twins....The government will not let you adopt if you are pregnant at the same time. If we are, I am not going to tell anyone because the last time I miscarried in the 4 month...whose to say that I will be able to make it to term? I do not want to give up the chance of twins because I may be pregnant?...like I say...what if I m/c again?So today I feel bloated...boobs hurt...and my lower lip keeps vibrating....all signs of a hormonal change....