bleh

I can't sleep. My legs hurt so much, and my arms feel so heavy. It feels like someone gave me a beating. And to top it off I'm really stiff, as if I was stuffed in a tiny box for several hours and let out, and I can't move. It's so frustrating, my mind is so tired but my body hurts so much that I can't rest, which is strange becuase I can usually sleep just fine. And I'm so cold. I think it's because of the sudden weather change. It was a full on spring day about twelve hours ago, and now it's feezing and there's a fresh blanket of snow. Maybe someone out there said, you know what, let's ruin easter for this girl, just for poops and giggles. I can feel my anxiety rising too, a strange sour feeling that comes up my throat. And it feel like my heart is crying. My mind is racing. I'm just worried about my health, I know it's the fibro but the possibility that it might be something worse always makes me think the worst. And I'm supposed to help out a few people tomorrow for easter, even though I'm not much into easter, but I don't want to let them down. I'm tired of telling people "I'm sorry, I can't, I'm in too much pain today". I bet they get tired of hearing it too. And I felt good for so long. I hope I feel better soon, or I'll just suck it up and do what I have to do tomorrow.  .....