Bleakness fades

Being bleeck and depressed, but not for a specfic reason. I just feel sometimes that I am the  last sigle woman on earth and everyone wants some, at the same time Im here hiding in my castle, and feeling more and more invincible but yet reality hits and I am sore on my hip. I pulled a muscle in it, and haven't been msyelf since I got sick on salmon  What a mess I was. I have agoraphobia, and when I do go out I am very peticular aout whom I spend time with. Usually I am a lone hence the name Lonewolf. But there are times when I was wishing I had someone close. I met someone I really like but it's not a thing. Not yet. THere is something troubling me. The thing is, I was going to meet someone, and it turns out I don't like him one bit. I want him to stop calling ,and my friend says i should just cut it off right now. I think I will. He's just extreemly prejduce and I cannot take that in a partner.So I'm going to try to let him down gently if there is no backing out from his end. I just don't want to be involved with someone who h ates an entire race fo people ya know/ I never could understand that way of thinking, maybe im too much of a free spirit, but I just don't think there should be so much hate in the world. Can't we all just gt along?