bleak times

Right now I feel as if Im in a nightmare that I can't get out of... fallen out with family which I thought would be there for me,and find they are running true to form.... Diabetes is getting me down more so lately what with the nerve damage in my foot,which is sore and painful. Had to go to the foot doctor today,and her attitude was one of not caring less....as Ive found with countless doctors. A while ago my doctor did briefly mention borderline personality disorder, and I thought nothing of it,just thinking its my depression thats the problem. But was surprised to learn it is quite common,and there are many people in the same boat.My problem is that I feel Im over sensitive,and usually an easy target for anyone that fancies having ago at me.Ive fallen out with some of my family,and it probably is a storm in a teacup,but Im so tired and exhausted from crying,that Im scared of what I might do to myself in the heat of the moment. Just hope a good nights sleep will help. The world looks bleak,and I feel so alone...