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had to self medicate again today with my "beans" (percs.).almost dont even care about it anymore cuz it gets me thru the day.I dont use them when i am feeling fine but when there is instant relief,how can you blame me.Sounds like the problems with alcohol,instant relief.i havent drank anything in quite sometime but i am not entirely clean if you know what i mean.I need for my regular meds to work so i can stop this silly self med shit and get back on track to living life.I dont feel alive today......I feel.......